xD;; I believe it's record-breaking?
other than that uhhh. . . snow?
no I really can't think of anything else, but I know there was something else!
. . . I forget.
:)
KEEP WARM!
but I think I just danced for an hour and a half and didn't cry, and I'm even in a good mood
(despite being sweaty LOL)
buuut I probably will be sore tomorrow, I got carried away lmao.
I'm in the process of sloppily learning replay. Just to do it. I'll never show anyone, cause I'm not being a perfectionist about it (Im BSing half the moves of course lol) but Im just doing it.
OH, and, the day before yesterday when I was not REALLY SICK
I walked on the treadmill for 20 mins :)
I'm going to school tomorrow, as far as I know. I mean, I feel fine atm xD I didn't this morning.
but I have to get up early. . . uahhh
Give up this BS. Not worth it.
I'm a little upset. . . Trying not to be. It's silly, anyway. My feelings are silly.
But other than that, I can kinda. . . vibrato. Arm.
I'm gonna practice and get it down. :)
Today, something happened with my finger in my lesson, and I didn't like it at all. . My pointer finger on my left hand, obviously the hand I was trying to vibrato with (first and fourth fingers are really hard!) kept getting STUCK. It wasn't like, the bottom joint, like you'd think. It was the top, closest to the point of my finger. . . it doesn't really do it anymore now, but it still hurts when I bend my finger. ick.
and uhh. . America's Cup, ew. xD I always hate the songs he gives us in Orchestra until I can really play them. Which is always until a few days before the concert. but every time I'm like geez. . .
I also ordered a commission the other day! She just responded to my request today, and omg, it made me feel better. She's gonna sketch it out and then I can approve it and buy it :D omg. so excited.
ohoh! Also bought a book from my favorite DA author. Can't wait for it to get here!
I love my friends. Plain old awesomeness. That makes me feel a bit better too. :) For Christmas, Alex got me a music box that is totally adorable and plays a really cute song ><
Annie got me a combo Christmas/late shengri present, Alphonse and Winry figures. (and cookies.) I was like. . . naw. She knows me way too well, even that we haven't been talking as much lately (cause we never see each other.)
And Shelby got me love xD We always fail with presents with eachother. I say, at least we both tried this year. In the past Ive just not gotten her anything. She got me an iphone case from five below, that was slippery-er than the one I have now, so it kept slipping from my hand, and also it was not protective if I were to drop my phone. then we couldnt for ANYTHING get it off my phone. It would NOT come off. It took three people an hour and a half and plenty of broken fingernails, but we finally got it off. .. but not without breaking it. x3 and I got her-- get this. I went to a pharmacy right before I dropped by her house in Ocean City, and got her a couple things of nail polish and lip gloss, and a chocolate bar-- and hey, don't say I was cheap. . . I spent thirty dollars, it was a pharmacy after all. . . plus the bag to put it in! haha. .
I met my new English teacher today. Dunno what to think. She seems kind of expectant, or something. not really strict, but. .. yeah.
I am also incapable of writing short journal entries.
love, tade hao pengyou.
Your fingernails sew themselves to your palms.
You're so confusing, but you're more confused-- howcome you can't figure out why it happens this way?
And your teeth are clicking out a rhythm no one understands, your eyes are squinting from the brightness that isn't there.
Is the fire licking at the lush forests of your mind?
You and I both know that your hands are itching to turn down the heat, but no one can.
The wind is beating passionately at your window, and a train wails in the distance. You toss and turn.
As an insomniac, I wish you'd spend your sleepless nights thinking of me, as I do you.
- Music:Yui
When is is finally found they clutch at it desperately, bringing it back towards a heart beating rapidly deep within a chest.
As the box is delicately placed down and the lid is carefully removed, the cold hands tremble slightly.
The tremors increase in hesitation. Suddenly the fingers reach into the box and meet the papers left there. They pull out the papers, and unfold the memories.
A sharp intake of breath, followed momentarily by shallow breaths and silent tears.
The fingers crumple the papers in anguish, then as if in regret immediately uncrumple them, fold them as neatly as possible and place them softly back in the box.
Cold fingers smelling of old paper and ink close the lid on the box and place it back into the darkness, where it belongs.
I didn't mean it like this.
wrote that a couple days ago.
Ehmm I neglected to write for a little while . . .
Besides the fact that I apparently locked my journal, lol.
uhhhhhhhh I have an iphone now !
With an ocarina app 8D
got it for my birthday, cause Imma year older now. oyeaaa.
. . . also it snowed a lot recently.
a lot.
and the day before it snowed. . . I left my violin at school. hehe silly me. . . So I won't get MINE back till we go back to school.
and so my mom rented me a really expensive one for a month. auuu. without a shoulder rest [but I'm using a sponge.] also I'm learning vibrato. Arm vibrato. Well, both, really, but we'll see which develops easier.
I bought myself a keyboardd. .
uhhhwhatelsewhatelse. .
I've been playing a lot of this game, Civilization Revolution, or something like that? Mom got it for me for Christmas LAST YEAR but uh it didn't look interesting then, so . . .
and SHELBY'S SISTER HAD HER BABY AT 2AM on Christmas :D I forget what it was named, but it was her third boy. . . it was something '-ton'. I just forget what.
I had a wonderful Christmas, I got to see all of my family :D
Music lately, uhh, Pandora radio, honestly. Besides the Park Bom, Gdragon, Big Bang, etc lately. and Yui, she never gets old. My favorite, really. Yui is my writing music. *Puts some on*
that reminds me AVATAR. IT WAS SO AWESOME auuuu! I went and saw it with Tori. . . and if Shelby comes up for break, [which she hopefully will, I'm counting on it!] then I'm so taking her to see it [and I think mom'll come too, she really wants to see it.]
Reading 'Sons' by Pearl Buck.
Hah, uhmm, yeahhh. Mom's birthday was Christmas eve, and I picked out Dad's present for her. . [haha]. and then mine of course too.
I got to see my brother and my niece and nephew! I don't get to often enough. They are so adorable.
uh. . . ramble? yes.
- Music:Yui- Am I wrong
You used to say, when you held my hand and played with my fingers, how one day, we'd get away from it all, just you and me. Now, you don't remember those old dreams of yours. Now you talk about how in the distance you can sometimes see angels with wings spread, you can see past their cracked ribs into their hearts, and you want to be one of them.
Your eyes used to be soul-deep, whenever you looked at me. Now they are simply shallow, reflective pools.
You used to pick me flowers and smile behind eyes squinting against the sun, and I would tell you how I wasn't a girl, but put them behind my ear anyway. You'd laugh. Now, you step onto flowers and comment on how warm the sun is today, still squinting. I don't tell you that it's gray and cloudy, and the sun hasn't shown all day.
You used to drink sodas with me and recycle the bottle and cap. Now, you dump out the sodas and line the caps up on the floor in rows.
You used to say how your mind was filled with thoughts of me. Now, your mind must be full of clouds, because whenever we are home, the only things you say are to yourself.
You used to sleep in with me, in my arms, and when we would get up in the morning, it was always well past noon. I would cook breakfast as you took your vitamins. Now, I wake up to you curled into a ball facing the wall, whimpering to yourself in your dreams. I have to wake you up, and as breakfast is cooking, I have to force you to take your medicine. The vitamins, once something you never forgot, remain unopened on the counter, day after day.
You used to write out songs on your arms when you lacked paper. Now, there's no need to write songs. You have forgotten that there ever was the need to, anyway.
You used to be you, and you were strange, but. . . you were you. Now, you're like all of my cell phones that you have taken apart and put back together. You don't work the same way you used to. And sometimes, I really miss you. I know that you are in this body, somewhere. I live for the day that you'll come back to me. But sometimes, it's hard to convince myself that that will ever happen.
mental illness ness?
Is it a bad thing if. . . I'm a little bit proud of this? Do I even have a right to be?
She's driving me.
She gave me forty dollars for helping cook and stuff for the party, and I really, really tried not to spend too much, but she took me to the asian market here and. . . I bought stuff. @__@ and THEN, we went to the HUGE mall here, and I had to buy a pair of stockings cause Shelby borrowed mine a while back and who knows when I'll see her again. . but yeah. I probably spent a little more than twenty dollars.
That means I have about. . .sixty. I'm a little mad I spent so much. . . but it could have been worse. and what can you expect? Eight dollar stockings, plus. . . THE ASIAN MARKET? @__@.
I bought ramune. =D
lmao. Anyway. She also bought me these juices that are so. good. Currant, Sour Cherry and Pinnapple. [well I haven't tried the pinnapple yet but, I will.]
and Sunday she took me for italian ice and we went to the beach! Just to look at the flooding, stick our feet in the water and go, "Wow, look at those waves."
aaaandd to finish off yesterday, while we were at the mall we had a snack, sushi @___@ salmon rolls mmmmm
and then I came back with a headache, took a nap, it felt better and we went out for dinner [they have it at eight or nine!]. . . at this AMAZING Japanese restaurant! @__@.
And I actually ate the miso soup, it wasn't as bad as I remembered it. And then, I got sushi. xD; soosooo good I couldnt finish it all. My uncle ate the fish eggs one, but I ate everything else aside from a few that I couldn't finish, which were packaged up and on the car ride home, we're gonna put em on ice, I'm gonna eat em for lunch. [except maybe the eel one.] xD.
I wrote something last night. Lately that keeps happening. and I actually sort of like this one. But I'm not sure if I want anyone to see it yet. :l Only if she really wants to see it.
WHERE IS MY AUNT WE'RE LEAVING IN AN HOUR AND SHES NOT EVEN UP YET.
*drinks plum tea from the Asian Market.*
Yay NewYork.
My aunt's probably staying the night tonight somewhere near us, or with us, because she's going to have lunch with my grama and my NOW TWENTY YEAR OLD COUSIN. The one who went to France with me and the aunt and uncle I'm with now, she's twenty now.
Man, I remember looking at her high school pictures, and going, man, I'm gonna be in highschool someday. And I remember meeting her boyfriend, once. In the end, he slapped her for some reason in school, and got suspended.
Wow.
Geez.
I think my aunt's up.
*goes off to eat amazing greek yogurt*
Mukashi mukashi o-hime sama wa utsukushikatta.
--Long, long ago, there was a beautiful princess.
O-hime sama wa takakatta.
--The princess was tall.
O-hime sama wa hikukunakatta.
--The princess was not short.
Kami wa kurokatta.
--[Her] hair was black.
Kami wa akakunakatta.
--[Her] hair was not red.
Kami wa nagakatta.
--[Her] hair was long.
Kami wa mijikakunakatta.
--[Her] hair was not short.
Ashi wa chiisakatta.
--[Her] legs were small.
Te mo chiisakatta.
--So were [her] hands.
Achira wa kiirokatta hon desu.
--There was a yellow book.
Achira wa kiirokatta isu desu.
--There was a yellow chair.
O-hime sama wa kiirokatta no ga suki desu.
--The princess liked yellow things.
Achira wa hayakatta samurai desu.
--There was a fast samurai.
Samurai wa ookikatta.
--The samurai was big.
Mune wa ookikatta.
--[His] chest was big.
Te mo ookikatta.
--[His] hands are big also.
Chiisakunakatta.
--[He] was not small.
Subarashikunakatta.
--[He] was not wonderful.
Kono hanashi wa hontou de wa arimasen.
--This story is not real.
Demo, hanashi wa omoshiroi.
--But, this story is interesting.
AHHHHHHMAZING.
Just finished boys.
It is worth noting that
you should read it. hell yes.
All in all is all we are.
Also, I am going blond.
More like, the bleach is in my hair..
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